Banyak yg bilang cinta tuh candu...
Banyak yg bilang cinta tuh menyenangkan dan menyakitkan...
Banyak yg bilang cinta tuh bikin bodoh...
You know what I think?
It's all true....
Bahas soal cinta, emang klise bgt & gw udah sering denger...
Never thought that when I experienced it, I fell so so hard and now I aint got no clue how to fix it....
Man, lagi2 gw harus mnghadapi yg namanya PATAH HATI...
I tried to avoid it, but yet it happened again...
Dan apa hal yg paling menyakitkan??
Itu semua terjadi karena kebobrokan diri gw dan gw ga sadar (atau mungkin gw ga mau sadar???)....
Kejadian lagi!!!
Apa semua sepenuhnya salah gw?? Karena gw buat banyak bgt kesalahan yang membuat dia capek??
Gw inget waktu lg kebaktian, Pdt Soekirno share sesuatu soal hal yg terjadi di hidup...
Katanya kalau suatu hal terjadi dalam hidup kita 1x, itu kebetulan..Kalau 2x, itu kejadian, dan kalau 3x, itu namanya pola atau suatu perputaran yang akan terus terjadi dalam kejadian yang sama...
Dan sekarang, hal ini kejadian yg ke dua kali ke diri gw!!
Skrg gw memang lg diintimidasi bgt sama diri sendiri... Rasa nyesel, rasa bersalah, rasa takut, semua kekumpul bgt jadi satu...
Gw ga mau hal ini ke ulang lagi & jadi pola di hidup gw...
This has got to stop!!!
Tears won't stop falling..
Regrets and guilty feeling never stop hunting me...
But I do still love her so much...
Entah kenapa gw msh yakin kok sama dia...
Meski skrg semua tampak lebih kabur...
Blur....
I am now at the lowest bottom of my life...
God please help me fix my self...
I am so fragile, i do not know how to fix my self....
Those feelings that haunt me is killing me slowly....
Painful...
But life must go on...
She found her happiness without me...
All I got is regret...
pain...
shattered heart...
And a lesson learned...
Don't blame her, blame the stupid bulie...
I am guilty as charge....
Thank you everybody for supporting me...
I love you all..
God bless you...
Here's for ya..
ReplyDelete"Life perfect ain't perfect if you don't know what the struggle's for,
Falling down ain't falling down if you don't cry when you hit the floor,
It's called the past cause I'm getting past
And I ain't nothing like I was before,
You ought to see me now..." (-Lesson Learned)
don't regret a single yesterday, cos yesterday made u who you are... u gotta find a way to get yourself back on your feet.. u'll be stronger than before because of what u've gone through..
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it seems that she left you and people now not stop blaming for her stupidity action.. but i don't know why bul...in a coincidence way i see her cry and i watch her can't stand up on her feet.... the way she punished yourself its totaly wrong..now she still love you so much.. waiting for you to come back!! and let the foundation of you guys relationship get fixed.. anyway i don;t know much bout bout of you all i can see the fact is she still felt the same as you,her happiness is you! and i can she no matter what her friend try to get her out all she answered is " bulie is my sweet heart" he is my home that's why no matter what door he ipens now i know there will one atep at time love will meet us there.... its all the matter one of us want to make a move" that's all she said.
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